Big and Small

I read a precious devotion today and I just had to share. It was entitled "Don't Despise the Small" by Lysa Terkhurst http://devotions.proverbs31.org/ I might be off, but to me it hearkens back to the age old question (in my life anyway) of contentment. There are so many really big dreams swirling around in my head, let me tell you, I've got big plans! But instead of being able to realize these plans it seems my ideas are just pipe dreams. To be honest though, I choose that. Why would I do that? Because first I choose my Husband, Children and Home. I know me and I know that I have to give them all of me FIRST or there wouldn't be anything left to give. Nothing of quantity anyway. The meals would be late and sparse, the home would be dirty, unkempt and unwelcoming, the laundry would be...well have you heard of Kilimanjaro? Sure I could enroll my kids in public school/day care and get out there and live the life I've dreamed of...but then I would be a like a paper doll, no real substance behind me, merely a shadow of the kind of woman I've always wanted to be. So I'm here, folding laundry, washing dishes, tending my garden, changing diapers, and making meals but in the words of the Cat in the hat, "that's not all, no that's not all!" I'm also homeschooling my 11 year old and 5 year old, I'm helping my kids when it's their turn to be "Chef for the Day". I'm kissing booboos and reading stories and treasuring these special moments because I KNOW that one day my world won't be so small anymore, and my moment for "big" will come.